If I could type in Kapampangan, God knows I would have wrote a long post to my gma. I can’t even begin to utter the words I’m wanting to say.

I love you. Come visit me. Everyday. We have some things to discuss. I need to tell you about Mom & I need to let you know how much I miss you. I need to see you one last time. I need to feel your presence. I need to know how grandpa’s doing. I need you. I love you.

Forever in my heart, rest in paradise grandma, tell grandpa I’ve missed him. We’ll meet again someday <3

I’ve grown such a hate for you for so long that at this point, i can’t get rid of it.

I’m probably the biggest low-key asshole.

I’m not sorry about that. :)

I’ve always used tumblr as a personal diary that I don’t mind my followers reading.

In all honesty, I doubt many people read my rants/thoughts/whatever anyway. So its cool. It’s like my outlet to let shit out .. Looking back at my old tumblr (annnnnbaby.tumblr.com) I swear I just let so much shit out on that blog. ): I hate that it’s really real life that I don’t have someone to tell these things to… & if i do .. i hear the shit i don’t wanna hear. I’m glad tumblr can’t talk back to me. Sometimes I don’t want advice .. I just want someone to hear me out. SIGHHHHH

This has been one of the hardest days I’ve had to live through.

I need to make life changes. Re-evaluate friendships & priorities. & I need to get away from here and the people that don’t make it worth while whatsoever.

mountainsofhate:

There really comes a time where you might hate what you’re doing in your job, school, whatever but you grow up and deal with it and push through it. Shit happens, everybody knows this. Fuck the past and what you did, make sure you’re doing the right thing now and make sure you’re gonna do the right thing in the future. We all grow up and deal with life, everybody has to go through it sometime.

This weekend

• drinking
• smoking
• jello shooters
• late night runs to walmarts in different cities
• sonic BLASTS!
• YNot Pizza
• Thirft Store lady hot dogs
• Midnight pizza baking
• 21st Jump Street was HILARIOUS
• 7-11 runs
• St Pattys Day Parade
• skipped classes friday
• bought 2 wallets, purse & nail polish
• Got my 6th letter from Janice!
• Had BFF time with both of my bestfraansssss :)

I know one thing’s for sure tho …

I want to be a disney princess but I will never be able to do that ))): crycrycry. 

1. I would never cut off my real eye lashes to wear fake ones all day.

2. I have no idea how to get a job there.

3. I hate kids & could never deal with them all day ..

BUT i still want to be a disney princess :3 LOL